cant sleep
Going to finally see Joe tomorrow in Baltimore :) and I’m staying until monday. My flights at 7 am tomorrow so I know I should get to bed but I’m just too exciteddd! I get to spend 4 nights and 5 days with him, I’m SO happy :D I love him so much & I havent seen him since february! This weekend will be perfect (or so I hope)! I just hope everything works out, I definitley get anxiety before I see him cause I just worry so much about whether I’ll make it to the airport on time, if the weather is okay so my flight wont be cancelled or delayed and etc. ahhhhhhhh, anyway SO HAPPY
night :DDD
I just feel like,
Right now is the time in my life I need him most. I mean I know there could be other times I would need him more , but right now, I’m young, in college and we’re madly in love with each other but have to be apart. I’m 19 and all my friends are falling in love or are already in love and they’re together all the time. Thats how we should be. We should be able to stay up late together, wake up next to each other, get in stupid arguments over drama with our friends. Its just, now is the time I feel like will bring the most fun in my life. I wanna be able to go to the beach with him, take late night car rides or go to a cabin with him like last summer. But the fact that this wont be over until I’m out of college and then some….sometimes it just really sucks. Everyone tells me I’ll get used to it, and maybe I will but itll never get easy being apart from someone you love more than anything. I want him by my side while I’m experiencing all these new things, and more importantly I want to be able to be by his side through all the craziness he goes through. Sometimes its just not fair.
